Hello. I have wanted to send a surgery update. But I’ve been waiting for one. Waiting for a change. Waiting for a breakthrough. Waiting to share something that is a significant difference. I haven’t had one yet. I realized I still need to respond and follow up and follow through. With you. And though I am sending this to many who have wanted to keep up with me, I have appreciated hearing back from you individually as we have reconnected heart to heart and one on one.
After the surgery, I faced cleaning out my nose and sinus area at least three times a day. Mucus. Blood. Pain. I faced steroids, antibiotics, and pain pills. None of these things are my favorite normally. I don’t even like to take Advil. Several reached out to me who had this kind of surgery almost 20 years ago and their results were not positive. Also what they went through physically was much harsher than what I faced recently. I’m very very thankful. Very.
We followed up with the surgeon who sucked disgusting atrocities from both nostrils… Deep inside. And I was promptly asked if I felt any kind of relief or felt better. Honestly all I could say was no. I did not yet have any change that I knew of. Remember the purpose is for me to have oxygen going to my brain. How will I know when I have a change? Well, I want to see myself sleeping at night with my mouth closed. I need to see a consistent balance come back to my walking down the hallway. I need to see a follow through in my thoughts that takes me from start to follow through to finish. I need to see peace when I look myself back in the mirror. I need to see a calm to life‘s happenings. I need to see my food digest in such a way that it takes the natural course of events inside my body. I need to see health. Surgery update…
Craig mentioned a few moments ago that he noticed I had slept and was sleeping this morning. What he doesn’t know is that I was awake until 4:44 and he saw me at 5:15. He saw me peacefully sleep for right at an hour. And I’m thankful for that hour.
After the surgeon prodded and released me, he asked to see me in two more weeks. He said to continue the mucus and blood flush. I’m trusting God that this surgery was the right direction. No matter what the results, I trust God more today. And though I feel my life is off kilter right now (not forever) – I am learning to trust myself more as well. That’s always a good thing. Father God is reacquainting me with his presents in the joy and his presence in the sorrow, his presence in the living and his presence in the dying, his presence in the life and his presence in the strife, his presence in the sacred and his presence in the secular. God is present because you are present. Don’t face joy alone and don’t face sorrow alone. You have a Greatest Partner Living inside – loving you from victory and Life.
Recently I have taken more intentionality regarding certain habits. One is a conscious intentional breathing and releasing not just negative toxins but actual negative breath and energy that has accumulated during the day. Painting also has caused me to stop and listen in a different way. That’s been a God thing.
Now, for over a week I have been forgetting to do something very specific to help someone whom I love get a lymphatic compression sleeve and glove because of a partial mastectomy. Daily I would forget to call the company to discuss it, order it, pay for it. Yesterday, I finally was able to concentrate enough to sit and go through the process of getting it done. I noticed an attentiveness … I noticed several credit cards that were outdated. These are credit cards I use in ministry, in life and business. I immediately took action and called the banks to discuss it and get those things handled. I do think that blood flow was the reason I was able to do that. I do believe oxygen flowing correctly helped me to actually take action in those areas that I have not before. So to me, there is some thing that changed. And I’m thankful. Surgery update. If you want to read about the reason for my surgery you can check it out here – Wanting Oxygen to my Brain
But just to keep it real, yesterday I had a total meltdown emotionally. It was not good. I’m not sure what additional changes need to be made within me or around me, but mental health is part of our physical health. Our physical health is part of our emotional and mental health. And though everything is spiritual… Not everything is spiritual. So I’m listening close to see what is happening within me….Because it is definitely impacting was happening around me.
Our God is faithful and he’s listening. His LifeForce within. Here’s our every breath. He’s not disappeared and gone anywhere. He’s in the midst of every trouble and trial. He’s in the midst of every piece in the fire. He is in the midst of the floor and the mess. He is in the midst of every sense. So do not give up my friend. It’s a new beginning and a new end. Do not turn to the left or right. But listen close inside to that mind of Christ.
I am OK and you’re OK. God has good things for you and God has good things for me. There’s so much good in us and around us. Do not concentrate on the bad. Do you not concentrate on your regrets or what you wish you had. But take one step in front of the other and listen close to your Father.
This is the season of keeping it real. I don’t have a spiritual lesson or way to tell you to heal. I do know there is an intimacy deep inside of you. So listen deep and listen close and the voice of God will see you through. He’ll give you ideas that you never knew you could have. He’ll explode your heart with life, hope and with love. In the midst of a mess, He will let you address life’s impossibilities with Him … face to face … chin to chin …
HE may have you return to basics of life – away from the busyness and away from the strife. HE will join you in the pause and reassure your night that HE is your Day and with you in the plight.
Many of you have reconnected with me in the season of me keeping it real. I appreciate every note and every card and every single email. I appreciate you giving me time to respond to what’s happening inside of your life. I want you to know that I love you and then we may have lost contact over the years that today I appreciate you and I hold your life dear.
Grieving lasts for a moment but joy?
Joy is in the morning.
Good morning with my surgery update and much love- Donna
