If you stop your process again, you will either abort or miscarry so no more hijacking your own birthing process.
Follow through – take it to the finish line. I know you think you are not going to make it. I feel it deep in my bones. My feelings are right there with you.
Take a deep breath and take each day as it comes but whatever you do – don’t stop your process of carrying your identity full term again. No more hijacking.
It is NOT just a new day – it is your day. Yes, you have some dreams you have pressed into before but this is different. This isn’t a dream – this is your identity. This is what you are made of and you are in the process of a brave new you. No more hijacking.
I can see you in the birth canal. You are on the way. Don’t stop! Yes, you may need to take a breath and rest. It is like when you are working out. A good trainer will have you stop and breathe and hydrate but then you get back to those muscles before the muscles do what they want. You have to tell your muscles what to do. You have to tell your body what to do. You must not stop believing that you can finish this process of identity.
You have health on the other side. You have finances on the other side. You have promises fulfilled coming. You can do it. You can deliver. You are worth the pain. You are worth the effort. You are worth the continual pushing until you are born. Remain in labor. Don’t lose your nerve now. No more hijacking.
Don’t run away. Don’t shut down. Don’t be angry. Don’t avoid it. Don’t continue to think of ways to get around it. Don’t give up. Don’t turn back. Don’t give in. Look at how far you have come. No more hijacking. You have gone too far to turn back now. No more hijacking your process of identity.
DO love you enough to hug yourself. Then, hug the one with you. Your body doesn’t just want to run until you are ragged or sleep until you’re a new person. Your body and my body wants the consistency of the daily living and breathing in and out until our consistency births a stability and reliability and maturity that can be trusted with the life we have asked God for. You have cried out to be a lover of humanity. You have cried out to love like Jesus. You have begged God to make you more like Him. This process of life and living is your birthing time. You just did not realize how critical your own birthing is for you and your family and your city. you are the in the process of birthing your own identity.
Until soon and no more hijacking – love d.